By Maureen Oliver
ISBN: 978-1-84747-121-5
Published: 2007
Pages: 129
Key Themes: poetry, schizophrenia, activism
Description
This is a collection of Maureen's first two books - 'Breaking Down' & 'Poetry', both first published as e-books and now available for the first time in paperback.
Breaking Down
'Breaking Down' is the personal record of a 'psychotic' breakdown. The author was, at the time, a single mother and lesbian activist campaigning vigorously for gay rights. She faithfully recorded her visions and voices, and the diary shows her desperate attempt to make sense of, and to survive, mental disintegration and schizophrenia.
Poetry
This inspiring collection of poems was written over a twenty-five year period and documents the experiences and thoughts of Maureen during this most tumultuous period of her life. Her poems are warm and her language elegant. In the new genre of 'mad poetry' this is a key collection, written by one of its main exponents.
About the Author
Maureen Oliver is a lesbian artist and poet, a mother and grandmother, and a psychiatric survivor with a current diagnosis of Schizoaffective Disorder.
Book Extracts
Breaking Down
I keep arriving at the FIRE. Voices urge me to enter it - say I must enter it - that I am already starting to go into it. I stand in the enclosed space of the tunnel, surrounded by damp, dripping rocks. I am naked and vulnerable - the fire burns before me up into the darkness, across the pathway. Its flames are blue-green tipped, orange at centre, the pathway to one side slips away to bottomless depths where I feel dark water flows - the other side is the solid rock - I can see the pathway continuing on the other side winding on and on, twisting slightly - far in the distance is turquoise light - a black, eye-like sun blinks through a tiny opening - golden rays - like shining lashes radiate from it. I am cold - the fire does not give off warmth - I am icy-cold, ice burning in the darkness.
Voices: 'You see what you've done Maureen?'
What have I done? I don't see at all.
'You can't see us but we are here, we can read your thoughts'. These voices usually come from behind me. When I hear them I am also (usually) experiencing a numb sensation spreading from the right side of my head to the right side in the front of the face - forehead, cheekbones. Also a floating sensation and a sense of unreality? Though the world presses in on me - hyper-real.
It occurs to me later - Maureen is me/Anu - is she also me (my second name is Ann). Marina? My Grandad used to call me something like that when I was a child. So Marina and Anu are related to my own being/participate in/are connected to me/my life/my experience. The balance holds as long as Maureen has control most of the time, which she does at present/if Anu or Marina took over, if Maureen became less it would be a DISASTER. Marina is connected to the girl in the enclosed cavern who cries out naked and alone in the room without doors.
They placed me in the fire - chanting, taunting me. I was consumed by the fire. Then I was not Anu - or Maureen - I was in a vacuum. The vacuum was in me. It was utter, outer darkness. I had consciousness without existence. I was emptiness, nothingness, the void. It was terrible. It went on and on - timeless, spaceless, formless. It was hard to come to. I was in my body without feeling my body for a long time. When I first came back I was Marina - weak and afraid. I aroused disgust in S (note: my partner at that time) Now I feel true solitude and the edge of icy despair.
I try to get through my work and be fully tuned into the material plane. It is difficult. Doctor Aru says I should go back on major tranquillizers. What shit! This is surely no way to solve the problems. Should I try to find a counsellor? Is there a way through and out of the tunnel? Sussanah was clearly a gateway. Since she left me, cold and empty and sad, I have not been there so often. I still feel its pull and I have been called back by unseen forces.
I am concentrating to stay on the material plane - but am not working as well as before. I have to find some healing to make me strong and able to work well again - people expect it of me - it is my Karma to help and heal others yet this battle of my soul makes it all so difficult. Part of me wants to find a physical cause. I am having blood tests. I was beaten by the police on a demonstration 3 weeks ago and still can't straighten my left leg.
I feel a clear passage of white light from Heaven through me to the earth below. Energy returns to me- I must use it rightly.
Within me is the Spirit of Hecate - Goddess of Darkness and the Moon. The ancient priestess - death, rebirth and regeneration.
My foolish enemies were moths flying into a candle flame. A new direction awaits me - and the Ace of Swords. I must follow this pathway of my spirit and learn to loosen the ties of temporal power.
If I must go alone then Blessed Be.
Towards the end of last nights ACT UP - my mind kept going completely blank - embarrassing and difficult. I feel as though I'm slipping, sliding, trying to climb a glacier. Last Thursday I was arrested on an ACT UP demonstration - held three hours in Bow Street cells - I felt faint and dizzy. I wasn't allowed a drink of tea or to see a doctor. I was charged with obstruction.
The illness I suffered before hangs like some dread curtain in my mind. Also, I mentioned to some ACT UP women that I had been on a 'psyche ward' and caught looks of horror. I told Dennis (co-worker and friend) and he said they would automatically fear unreliability. But haven't I proved my reliability over and over again? Must I be judged for this illness and found guilty? I have vowed not to hide it in the same way I vowed not to hide being gay. But the punishment and prejudice are everywhere. I didn't do anything bad, or wicked or irresponsible. I was ILL. I hate the new idea that there's no such thing as mental illness because it makes us out to be wanton, bad people.
Having received the Talisman from Kevin (Quiveen) note: my brother, have now comprehended something VITAL. ISIS my goddess! The Bright Fertile Mother who contains the DARK MOTHER also...represents a perfect balance of spiritual manifestation. He has linked the Talisman with my NAME - Maureen - linking me to the spiritual forces implied. DARK PURPLE (I see purples and reds). Later, I got so carried away with this feeling of POWER that I was rushing around on a DIFFERENT DIMENSION to people - I'd dressed in PURPLE and put on RED lipstick (purples and reds)...
I am still trying to work...
Poetry
Little Boy Blue,
sighs and shining eyes,
stirring coffee and pining –
‘Oh secret sadness, oh tragedy,’
could I help him? Oh motherly me.
‘Let me talk to you, so sweet and kind,
so helpful, so nice, let me show you my mind.’
Oh charming, oh sad, emotionally pure,
you might think him sensitive,
you may well be wrong.
Oh, motherly ladies from Whitby to Poole
are waiting the visit of Little Boy Blue.
The ladies who understand sad little boys
are wanting to comfort him, offer him toys.
You might think him an angel,
you may be deluded.
The ladies who offered this cherub their all
are lying to husbands, some in the grave,
some knotted in strait jackets –
but the comfort they gave!
Some have taken to drink, some in therapy,
some gave him their money, some just offered tea.
Oh kindly ladies from Whitby to Poole
don’t give him sweeties, don’t warm him in bed,
don’t talk with him, offer him spiritual aid.
Your heart will be emptied, your soul will be raped –
for he swallows them whole, he digests them all,
those kind, helpful ladies from Whitby to Poole.
Trust
Trust, they tell me
is what I need.
‘Trust me, trust us and
we will pour oil on those
wounds, we will heal your pain,
if you only trust in us.’
The mask seems golden,
the smile benign,
light plays around the hollows
of the eyes,
russet shadows flicker lovingly
across cheekbones, and
I am enticed, almost under a spell.
Faltering, trusting, I reveal my secrets,
like some damned dance of the Seven Veils
in Hell, till, vulnerable in my innocence
I observe with horror that
dark lies and rude cruelty now
stain the welcoming visage, and,v at the portal of Hades, I hesitate,
turn back to retrace my steps, but
flight is impossible for
he holds the seeds
of my soul in his palm – and
now winningly,
the therapist smiles –
showing his teeth.
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Friday, 21 September 2007
Am I Still Laughing? By Dolly Sen
Am I Still Laughing?
£12.00
By Dolly Sen
ISBN: 978-1-905610-94-5
Published: 2006
Pages: 184
Key Themes: schizophrenia, manic depression, bi-polar disorder, abuse, self-harm, activism
"An epistle to equality, tolerance and the true beauty of madness. Dolly Sen's powerful personal pilgrimage to love, life and humanity again is a very intimate tale about the power of dreaming, taking control and fighting for the right to be oneself and to be equal and to be accepted" - David Morris, Senior Policy Adviser to the Mayor (Disability), Greater London Authority
Description
Dolly Sen’s second book, 'Am I Still Laughing?, is the follow up to her acclaimed memoir, 'The World is Full of Laughter'. Her first book started out as a possible suicide note and ended up as a celebration of life. The brutally honest account of living with madness has been an inspiration to readers around the world, and has positively changed many peoples’ lives. In 'Am I Still Laughing' Dolly describes her childhood with a father who was a small-time singer and actor, through him she worked as an extra on various films including the Star Wars epic, The Empire Strikes Back, until Steven Spielberg sacked her because he thought her child-breasts were too big for the part of an underfed child slave. Confused by sci-fi reality and day-to-day fiction Dolly traces her madness ‘all the way back to when I worked on The Empire Strikes Back. It wasn't a film, it was reality, and it was up to me to maintain the good and evil in the universe'.
About the Author
Author, poet and activist Dolly Sen lives in Streatham, South London. Born in 1970, she had her first psychotic experience aged 14 which lead her to leave school. After years of mental illness, probably bought on by an abusive childhood, Dolly decided she should write about her experiences. She was inspired to write her own story after reading Jason Pegler's autobiography 'A Can of Madness'. She has since written five books, become a successful performance poet who has toured throughout Europe and has set up two charities. Dolly is a key figure in the mental health movement and regularly appears on television and radio talking about mental health issues.
Book Extract
Writing has always helped me. I found it when I was 22 and it has kept me alive since then. During my worst depressions, writing gave me a reason to wake up in the morning. Would I still have carried on writing if I never was published? Of course I would. One of my favourite writers, Charles Bukowski, said of writing: ‘It is the last expectation, the last explanation, that’s what writing is’. A plain piece of paper won’t judge you, criticize you. And above all it won’t lie to you. If you can’t say what needs to be said face to face, write it down.
People with mental health problems who are able should think about either writing their story or at least telling it. Their lives shouldn’t be what they think are dirty secrets they have to hide. One woman at one of my book signings shook her head sadly and said, “I can’t, it’s too painful. And besides, nobody wants to hear it.” That’s what I thought once. I now know that to be untrue. People, men and women, young and old, rich and poor, have taken me aside after reading my book and say, sometimes with tears in their eyes, “This happened to me too… but please don’t tell anyone that it did.” This is painfully heart-rending. Because I think if you don’t share it positively, it’ll manifest somewhere else, in your body, in your relationship to others and the world. For example, it can be seen in some people’s eyes; they try to smile, but their eyes don’t believe it. Their eyes are telling their story – something about their life always will. So you might as well have some control over it.
For me creativity gave me control in a world where because of a diagnosis I had no control. A South American poet said, “Take away someone’s creativity and you take away their humanity. Give someone back their creativity, and you give back their life.” I found this to be true while writing my story, and every day after too.
Writing your life story does so much for you. It gives you opportunity to reflect, it empowers you because you have nothing to hide any more.
I made a conscious decision to let it out, to give away secrets. But it was really difficult to get it onto paper sometimes without crying; or deleting, starting again, deleting, and starting again. Some of the things I wrote I didn’t tell my family about. Most of them didn’t know about the abortion or the extent of my mental illness.
Will they reject me for what needs to be said? That did definitely cross my mind. I even made plans to leave London if things got ugly. The first to read it was Paula. When she finished it, she rang me up in tears. “Why didn’t you tell me? About the abortion and other things? Oh Dolly…” So we cried together. I was so relieved that she didn’t reject me; in fact, it made our relationship stronger. This goes with the other members of my family too. Our love got stronger. It dumbfounded me. Of course, my father won’t read it – or can’t. His memory is such that he doesn’t remember what he reads. For example, he will read the same newspaper 5 or 6 times without retaining information. And nothing can change the story he tells himself anyway. Jason was intuitively supportive, just knowing exactly the right time to encourage me. His belief in me was nothing I had from anyone in my life previously. I remember thinking this is the thing that all humans need, the thing that affects change in someone, no matter what has happened in their life before. I am forever grateful for him for that. And because of his belief in me, my self-belief developed slowly.
So I didn’t get to see much of the summer of 2002. I had spent most of it, sweating inside, writing the book. When it was finished, I felt like a new person, my skin was easier to wear. The thing I thought would be the hardest thing to do was in fact very uplifting and life-refreshing. I felt I could do anything… until I realised how much my life would now change. Being a published writer, I had to engage with people, talk to them! And talk in front of them! I was shitting myself. I wanted to go back and hide, not unwrite the book but be anonymous again. As the publication date loomed closer and closer, Jason gave me things to do to occupy myself. He needed photos for the book cover, so I got my brother Kenny to emerge from behind his computers and take some pics of me with his digital camera. “What are they for?” he asked. “Oh, they are for the cover of my new book.” “Oh right, I see.” Like it was something we did everyday. But Kenny is used to my craziness. If I said, Kenny we have to burn socks so the devil doesn’t have fossil fuel. He would have said, “Oh right, I see.”
£12.00
By Dolly Sen
ISBN: 978-1-905610-94-5
Published: 2006
Pages: 184
Key Themes: schizophrenia, manic depression, bi-polar disorder, abuse, self-harm, activism
"An epistle to equality, tolerance and the true beauty of madness. Dolly Sen's powerful personal pilgrimage to love, life and humanity again is a very intimate tale about the power of dreaming, taking control and fighting for the right to be oneself and to be equal and to be accepted" - David Morris, Senior Policy Adviser to the Mayor (Disability), Greater London Authority
Description
Dolly Sen’s second book, 'Am I Still Laughing?, is the follow up to her acclaimed memoir, 'The World is Full of Laughter'. Her first book started out as a possible suicide note and ended up as a celebration of life. The brutally honest account of living with madness has been an inspiration to readers around the world, and has positively changed many peoples’ lives. In 'Am I Still Laughing' Dolly describes her childhood with a father who was a small-time singer and actor, through him she worked as an extra on various films including the Star Wars epic, The Empire Strikes Back, until Steven Spielberg sacked her because he thought her child-breasts were too big for the part of an underfed child slave. Confused by sci-fi reality and day-to-day fiction Dolly traces her madness ‘all the way back to when I worked on The Empire Strikes Back. It wasn't a film, it was reality, and it was up to me to maintain the good and evil in the universe'.
About the Author
Author, poet and activist Dolly Sen lives in Streatham, South London. Born in 1970, she had her first psychotic experience aged 14 which lead her to leave school. After years of mental illness, probably bought on by an abusive childhood, Dolly decided she should write about her experiences. She was inspired to write her own story after reading Jason Pegler's autobiography 'A Can of Madness'. She has since written five books, become a successful performance poet who has toured throughout Europe and has set up two charities. Dolly is a key figure in the mental health movement and regularly appears on television and radio talking about mental health issues.
Book Extract
Writing has always helped me. I found it when I was 22 and it has kept me alive since then. During my worst depressions, writing gave me a reason to wake up in the morning. Would I still have carried on writing if I never was published? Of course I would. One of my favourite writers, Charles Bukowski, said of writing: ‘It is the last expectation, the last explanation, that’s what writing is’. A plain piece of paper won’t judge you, criticize you. And above all it won’t lie to you. If you can’t say what needs to be said face to face, write it down.
People with mental health problems who are able should think about either writing their story or at least telling it. Their lives shouldn’t be what they think are dirty secrets they have to hide. One woman at one of my book signings shook her head sadly and said, “I can’t, it’s too painful. And besides, nobody wants to hear it.” That’s what I thought once. I now know that to be untrue. People, men and women, young and old, rich and poor, have taken me aside after reading my book and say, sometimes with tears in their eyes, “This happened to me too… but please don’t tell anyone that it did.” This is painfully heart-rending. Because I think if you don’t share it positively, it’ll manifest somewhere else, in your body, in your relationship to others and the world. For example, it can be seen in some people’s eyes; they try to smile, but their eyes don’t believe it. Their eyes are telling their story – something about their life always will. So you might as well have some control over it.
For me creativity gave me control in a world where because of a diagnosis I had no control. A South American poet said, “Take away someone’s creativity and you take away their humanity. Give someone back their creativity, and you give back their life.” I found this to be true while writing my story, and every day after too.
Writing your life story does so much for you. It gives you opportunity to reflect, it empowers you because you have nothing to hide any more.
I made a conscious decision to let it out, to give away secrets. But it was really difficult to get it onto paper sometimes without crying; or deleting, starting again, deleting, and starting again. Some of the things I wrote I didn’t tell my family about. Most of them didn’t know about the abortion or the extent of my mental illness.
Will they reject me for what needs to be said? That did definitely cross my mind. I even made plans to leave London if things got ugly. The first to read it was Paula. When she finished it, she rang me up in tears. “Why didn’t you tell me? About the abortion and other things? Oh Dolly…” So we cried together. I was so relieved that she didn’t reject me; in fact, it made our relationship stronger. This goes with the other members of my family too. Our love got stronger. It dumbfounded me. Of course, my father won’t read it – or can’t. His memory is such that he doesn’t remember what he reads. For example, he will read the same newspaper 5 or 6 times without retaining information. And nothing can change the story he tells himself anyway. Jason was intuitively supportive, just knowing exactly the right time to encourage me. His belief in me was nothing I had from anyone in my life previously. I remember thinking this is the thing that all humans need, the thing that affects change in someone, no matter what has happened in their life before. I am forever grateful for him for that. And because of his belief in me, my self-belief developed slowly.
So I didn’t get to see much of the summer of 2002. I had spent most of it, sweating inside, writing the book. When it was finished, I felt like a new person, my skin was easier to wear. The thing I thought would be the hardest thing to do was in fact very uplifting and life-refreshing. I felt I could do anything… until I realised how much my life would now change. Being a published writer, I had to engage with people, talk to them! And talk in front of them! I was shitting myself. I wanted to go back and hide, not unwrite the book but be anonymous again. As the publication date loomed closer and closer, Jason gave me things to do to occupy myself. He needed photos for the book cover, so I got my brother Kenny to emerge from behind his computers and take some pics of me with his digital camera. “What are they for?” he asked. “Oh, they are for the cover of my new book.” “Oh right, I see.” Like it was something we did everyday. But Kenny is used to my craziness. If I said, Kenny we have to burn socks so the devil doesn’t have fossil fuel. He would have said, “Oh right, I see.”
Monday, 3 September 2007
Jason Pegler Introduction
Jason Pegler is one of the most inspirational mental health empowerment speakers in the world. He is probably unique in his openness about using his own mental illness as a positive force, in order to lead a generation of people to be empowered. They can do this by confronting their mental illness and therefore taking the first steps to recovery.
Jason has had a fascinating life, from being the captain of his school chess and rugby team and a potential Oxbridge candidate to being diagnosed with manic depression at the age of 17. He masterminded the leading autobiography on mental health of his generation "A Can of Madness", published in 2002.
Quickly realising that he could encourage others, Jason set up Chipmunkapublishing "The Mental Health Publisher", as a social enterprise, to give a voice to the mental health service users that had not had a real voice before. This led to selling and marketing opportunities in the Mental Health and Corporate Sectors as well as national and international media coverage. In just 5 years Jason has become a living legend in the world mental health survivor movement creating the world's first mental health brand Chipmunka. Jason Pegler is recognised as the leading thinker and activist of his generation in the world of mental health empowerment. Jason Pegler ground-breaking autobiography on living with manic depression "A Can of Madness" has been given a five star review in the Times Literary Supplement. He regards meeting people and public speaking as his forte. He is a dynamic public speaker, lecturer and consultant on a myriad of mental health and related issues. He has written for more than one hundred newspapers, periodicals, magazines worldwide. He regularly appears on television, radio and documentaries discussing mental health issues.
What clients say:
Jason Pegler is a great example to many people. He has a presentable manner and is always inspiring. The Right Honourable Tony Benn
We applaud Jason Pegler's motivation, endeavours and his determination to succeed in this difficult area". Marjorie Wallace Chief Executive of Sane Wow what an inspirational speaker. Makes you feel that you can help the whole world by being a humanitarian. Paul Brandwood - Corporate Social Responsibility at KPMG UK.
Pegler speaks with honesty, openness and integrity. He is revolutionary in the world of mental ill health. Book him now. Andrew Latchford - Co Founder of Chipmunkapublishing, Co Founder of Chipmunka Foundation and European Business Consultant
I regularly advise my students to go and hear him speak. Pegler has a gift that many aspire to. He fundamentally believes that you can change your life and cure yourself from mental illness and he is living proof that you can prove it. Dr. T. Davies - Consultant Psychiatrist and Editor of ABC of Mental Health
A truly amazing speaker. I wish everyone could hear Jason speak. It would change the way they think about people with mental illness. G. Taylor - Astra Zeneca
Having heard Jason Pegler speak I had the confidence to write my own story, which began as a suicide note and ended up a celebration of life. He has helped me more than anyone. Dolly Sen - Film producer and author of four books including the "The World Is Full of Laughter".
Jason Pegler is inspirational to a great many people in the UK service user movement. I am amazed how he does it. Paul Farmer - Chief Executive of Mind
I highly recommend Jason Pegler as a social entrepreneur and public speaker. Fantastic.John Bird - Founder of the Big Issue
One of the most forward thinking and inspirational motivational speakers in the world today. The leader of a new breed of empowerment thinking. Professor Sir Harvey Crichton - Founder of the Crichton Group.
For further information on this speaker, please call: 0870 766 9535
MORE ABOUT THE FOUNDER OF THE WORLD's FIRST MENTAL HEALTH BRAND !
His expertise is mental health. When he was seventeen years of age he spent six months in a psychiatric ward in Coney Hill Mental Hospital in Gloucester in the United Kingdom. After six weeks of mania where he thought he had taken 5 billion Ecstasy tablets to create world peace, Jason's first realisation that he was actually not well and in a mental hospital. He had a vision. He knew that one day he would have to gather enough strength to tell the world how he felt. By doing this he could stop the pain and humiliation that he and everyone else with a mental illness felt. His immediate thought was that his experiences and feelings needed to be recorded as they happened- on the largest platform possible. Then and only then would other people understand and therefore empathise with the "loonies" in Coney Hill. It took Jason four manic episodes before he was bold enough to change his thought processes and act on his vision. Jason graduated from Manchester University with a 2:1 in Classical Studies in 1998 before writing his autobiography on living with manic depression (1998 - 2002) "A Can of Madness", and setting up Chipmunkapublishing with co-founder Andrew Latchford.
Released on April 13th 2002 with help from the British Government's Mind Millennium Award Programme "A Can of Madness" was immediately recognised as a ground breaking text and compared favorably to Elizabeth Wurtzel's Prozac Nation and Kay Redfield Jamieson's An Unquiet Mind. It also became an underground text symptomatic of saving the ecstasy generation from its own "mental illness" and continues to spread its influence over the globe.
In October 2002 Chipmunkapublishing launched its second author Dolly Sen who was inspired to write her autobiography The World Is Full of Laughter after reading A Can of Madness.
"My goal in life is to tell the truth about my life, tell the truth about how people with mental health issues are treated by society, the mental health system, the state and the status quo. I want others to follow in my footsteps and help me break down the taboo on mental health once and for all." Jason Pegler.
Various documentaries, film versions and scripts featuring Jason Pegler and his related projects are underway. The ultimate goal is for the story to become a feature length blockbuster movie. Then the widest audience will be reached.
Jason Pegler knows from the letters he and other Chipmunkapublishing authors have received that their mental health publishing is making a positve impact in society:
"By telling the truth about one's mental health issues, sufferers are able to deal with the humiliation and carers are able to see how best to help their loved ones. Writing and reading books about mental health users is a cathartic processes that is crucial for the reduction of stigma and discrimination and for the improved state of mind for service users. The books also help give insight to mental health staff as they reveal how thier patient's feel and are a morale booster for staff showing that people do get better".
Jason Pegler has worked recently with:
ITVBBCEMISONYBMWSimon and Schuster MicrosoftUnltd The Big IssueMen's Health MagazineKPMGCommunity Action NetworkEC3 SolutionsRethinkMindSaneThere There MagazineThe NHS Tree EventsDisability Rights CommissionThe European ParliamentThe World Health OrganisationMPs and Lords on The Mental Health BillLondon Development CentreNIMHENHS
Vision: Words from the CEO Jason Pegler:
"The ultimate vision of Chipmunka Group is to prove that everyone on earth has a mental illness at some level. Then and only then will we have normalised mental health so that in fifty years someone with a mental illness will not have to feel humiliated for being mentally ill. At the age of seventeen I was diagnosed with manic depression and my world was turned upside down. After living in a mental hospital for six weeks I suddenly realised that I was not playing the football manager in the computer game. It took me months to realise that a nuclear war was not going on and that I was not God.
The moment I realised I had a mental illness I had a mission and a dream.
My mission was to one day tell the whole world about the humiliation and guilt that i had for having had all those idiotic manic thoughts. Celebrating my madness was the only way I could psychoanalyse myself and become better. I saw my story as a Hollywood movie not for my own ego but because being in a psychiatric ward changed me as a person. It made me more sensitive, I wanted to help people and stop another seventeen year old from going through the same pain that I went through. Until I was living in a mental hospital I couldn't have cared less what is was like for people who lived in places like that and experienced 'mental illness'.
For me then and still today Hollywood was the greatest medium to change the way people thought about the internet. This was in 1993. We are fortunate now that we also have the internet to enable people for the first time in history to be producers and not just consumers of information.
The moment i came down from mania a frisson went through my body that i had to help everyone else in the ward. This is a natural feeling for anyone who goes through this kind of pain. If you doubt it just ask them. It was immediately evident that society was the cause of the humiliation that these people were going through. People are alienated when they are not understood. This is how the status quo operates. Without it there would be anarchy.
The Mental Health Movement is still in its infancy even though 'mental illness' has been around since the beginning of time. People who are different have always been alienated but do not always have to be. In fact is contravenes civil liberties to assume that people are ill when they are not. People need help when they are alienated but their characters are not fundamentally flawed if they behave differently. The status quo throughout history has fed us with propaganda telling that they are 'mentally ill' as a form of social control and then clouding the real voice of those who suffer.
I set up Chipmunka to give a voice to the mentally ill. The plight of the mentally ill improves with every generation in the sense that we are not put in prison with murderers anymore. Yet the facts are that global mental illness will always be on the increase in our life times. By 2020 mental illness will be the second most common form of death second only to heart disease. Mental health is becoming part of the social norm and with this the influence of the patient will increase. We are in a transitional period in history where people who are 'mentally ill' must publically be given approval to control their own lives. There must be no hidden agenda's but an open arm policy calling for humanitarian treatment across mental health services and in society.
For me the role of the mental health patient is exactly the same as that of the civil rights activists in the 1960s. For charities, the media and governments to campaign for the mentally ill without having patients dictate the terms is irrational and ethically wrong. If Martin Luther King JNR was a white man talking about black people's experiences then no-one would have listened to him. The same is true with the history of the 'the mentally ill'.
The role of Chipmunka is to change the way people think about mental health and to treat it as normal. Some people will need to be subliminally influenced, others can be encouraged to be more empathetic or get pro actively involved. The reality is that we are all human beings at the end of the day and are all vulnerable constantly experiencing 'mental distress' or other either consciously or unconsciously worrying about a finite existence whether we believe in existentialist philosophy god, being or the after life itself.
Help us to help more people and donate your energy, time and money to becoming a supporter of the world's first mental health brand. Creating a brand is the best way to stop the rising number of suicides. Remember we feel your pain and/or indifference otherwise wwe ould be dedicating my entire life to something completely different."
Jason has had a fascinating life, from being the captain of his school chess and rugby team and a potential Oxbridge candidate to being diagnosed with manic depression at the age of 17. He masterminded the leading autobiography on mental health of his generation "A Can of Madness", published in 2002.
Quickly realising that he could encourage others, Jason set up Chipmunkapublishing "The Mental Health Publisher", as a social enterprise, to give a voice to the mental health service users that had not had a real voice before. This led to selling and marketing opportunities in the Mental Health and Corporate Sectors as well as national and international media coverage. In just 5 years Jason has become a living legend in the world mental health survivor movement creating the world's first mental health brand Chipmunka. Jason Pegler is recognised as the leading thinker and activist of his generation in the world of mental health empowerment. Jason Pegler ground-breaking autobiography on living with manic depression "A Can of Madness" has been given a five star review in the Times Literary Supplement. He regards meeting people and public speaking as his forte. He is a dynamic public speaker, lecturer and consultant on a myriad of mental health and related issues. He has written for more than one hundred newspapers, periodicals, magazines worldwide. He regularly appears on television, radio and documentaries discussing mental health issues.
What clients say:
Jason Pegler is a great example to many people. He has a presentable manner and is always inspiring. The Right Honourable Tony Benn
We applaud Jason Pegler's motivation, endeavours and his determination to succeed in this difficult area". Marjorie Wallace Chief Executive of Sane Wow what an inspirational speaker. Makes you feel that you can help the whole world by being a humanitarian. Paul Brandwood - Corporate Social Responsibility at KPMG UK.
Pegler speaks with honesty, openness and integrity. He is revolutionary in the world of mental ill health. Book him now. Andrew Latchford - Co Founder of Chipmunkapublishing, Co Founder of Chipmunka Foundation and European Business Consultant
I regularly advise my students to go and hear him speak. Pegler has a gift that many aspire to. He fundamentally believes that you can change your life and cure yourself from mental illness and he is living proof that you can prove it. Dr. T. Davies - Consultant Psychiatrist and Editor of ABC of Mental Health
A truly amazing speaker. I wish everyone could hear Jason speak. It would change the way they think about people with mental illness. G. Taylor - Astra Zeneca
Having heard Jason Pegler speak I had the confidence to write my own story, which began as a suicide note and ended up a celebration of life. He has helped me more than anyone. Dolly Sen - Film producer and author of four books including the "The World Is Full of Laughter".
Jason Pegler is inspirational to a great many people in the UK service user movement. I am amazed how he does it. Paul Farmer - Chief Executive of Mind
I highly recommend Jason Pegler as a social entrepreneur and public speaker. Fantastic.John Bird - Founder of the Big Issue
One of the most forward thinking and inspirational motivational speakers in the world today. The leader of a new breed of empowerment thinking. Professor Sir Harvey Crichton - Founder of the Crichton Group.
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MORE ABOUT THE FOUNDER OF THE WORLD's FIRST MENTAL HEALTH BRAND !
His expertise is mental health. When he was seventeen years of age he spent six months in a psychiatric ward in Coney Hill Mental Hospital in Gloucester in the United Kingdom. After six weeks of mania where he thought he had taken 5 billion Ecstasy tablets to create world peace, Jason's first realisation that he was actually not well and in a mental hospital. He had a vision. He knew that one day he would have to gather enough strength to tell the world how he felt. By doing this he could stop the pain and humiliation that he and everyone else with a mental illness felt. His immediate thought was that his experiences and feelings needed to be recorded as they happened- on the largest platform possible. Then and only then would other people understand and therefore empathise with the "loonies" in Coney Hill. It took Jason four manic episodes before he was bold enough to change his thought processes and act on his vision. Jason graduated from Manchester University with a 2:1 in Classical Studies in 1998 before writing his autobiography on living with manic depression (1998 - 2002) "A Can of Madness", and setting up Chipmunkapublishing with co-founder Andrew Latchford.
Released on April 13th 2002 with help from the British Government's Mind Millennium Award Programme "A Can of Madness" was immediately recognised as a ground breaking text and compared favorably to Elizabeth Wurtzel's Prozac Nation and Kay Redfield Jamieson's An Unquiet Mind. It also became an underground text symptomatic of saving the ecstasy generation from its own "mental illness" and continues to spread its influence over the globe.
In October 2002 Chipmunkapublishing launched its second author Dolly Sen who was inspired to write her autobiography The World Is Full of Laughter after reading A Can of Madness.
"My goal in life is to tell the truth about my life, tell the truth about how people with mental health issues are treated by society, the mental health system, the state and the status quo. I want others to follow in my footsteps and help me break down the taboo on mental health once and for all." Jason Pegler.
Various documentaries, film versions and scripts featuring Jason Pegler and his related projects are underway. The ultimate goal is for the story to become a feature length blockbuster movie. Then the widest audience will be reached.
Jason Pegler knows from the letters he and other Chipmunkapublishing authors have received that their mental health publishing is making a positve impact in society:
"By telling the truth about one's mental health issues, sufferers are able to deal with the humiliation and carers are able to see how best to help their loved ones. Writing and reading books about mental health users is a cathartic processes that is crucial for the reduction of stigma and discrimination and for the improved state of mind for service users. The books also help give insight to mental health staff as they reveal how thier patient's feel and are a morale booster for staff showing that people do get better".
Jason Pegler has worked recently with:
ITVBBCEMISONYBMWSimon and Schuster MicrosoftUnltd The Big IssueMen's Health MagazineKPMGCommunity Action NetworkEC3 SolutionsRethinkMindSaneThere There MagazineThe NHS Tree EventsDisability Rights CommissionThe European ParliamentThe World Health OrganisationMPs and Lords on The Mental Health BillLondon Development CentreNIMHENHS
Vision: Words from the CEO Jason Pegler:
"The ultimate vision of Chipmunka Group is to prove that everyone on earth has a mental illness at some level. Then and only then will we have normalised mental health so that in fifty years someone with a mental illness will not have to feel humiliated for being mentally ill. At the age of seventeen I was diagnosed with manic depression and my world was turned upside down. After living in a mental hospital for six weeks I suddenly realised that I was not playing the football manager in the computer game. It took me months to realise that a nuclear war was not going on and that I was not God.
The moment I realised I had a mental illness I had a mission and a dream.
My mission was to one day tell the whole world about the humiliation and guilt that i had for having had all those idiotic manic thoughts. Celebrating my madness was the only way I could psychoanalyse myself and become better. I saw my story as a Hollywood movie not for my own ego but because being in a psychiatric ward changed me as a person. It made me more sensitive, I wanted to help people and stop another seventeen year old from going through the same pain that I went through. Until I was living in a mental hospital I couldn't have cared less what is was like for people who lived in places like that and experienced 'mental illness'.
For me then and still today Hollywood was the greatest medium to change the way people thought about the internet. This was in 1993. We are fortunate now that we also have the internet to enable people for the first time in history to be producers and not just consumers of information.
The moment i came down from mania a frisson went through my body that i had to help everyone else in the ward. This is a natural feeling for anyone who goes through this kind of pain. If you doubt it just ask them. It was immediately evident that society was the cause of the humiliation that these people were going through. People are alienated when they are not understood. This is how the status quo operates. Without it there would be anarchy.
The Mental Health Movement is still in its infancy even though 'mental illness' has been around since the beginning of time. People who are different have always been alienated but do not always have to be. In fact is contravenes civil liberties to assume that people are ill when they are not. People need help when they are alienated but their characters are not fundamentally flawed if they behave differently. The status quo throughout history has fed us with propaganda telling that they are 'mentally ill' as a form of social control and then clouding the real voice of those who suffer.
I set up Chipmunka to give a voice to the mentally ill. The plight of the mentally ill improves with every generation in the sense that we are not put in prison with murderers anymore. Yet the facts are that global mental illness will always be on the increase in our life times. By 2020 mental illness will be the second most common form of death second only to heart disease. Mental health is becoming part of the social norm and with this the influence of the patient will increase. We are in a transitional period in history where people who are 'mentally ill' must publically be given approval to control their own lives. There must be no hidden agenda's but an open arm policy calling for humanitarian treatment across mental health services and in society.
For me the role of the mental health patient is exactly the same as that of the civil rights activists in the 1960s. For charities, the media and governments to campaign for the mentally ill without having patients dictate the terms is irrational and ethically wrong. If Martin Luther King JNR was a white man talking about black people's experiences then no-one would have listened to him. The same is true with the history of the 'the mentally ill'.
The role of Chipmunka is to change the way people think about mental health and to treat it as normal. Some people will need to be subliminally influenced, others can be encouraged to be more empathetic or get pro actively involved. The reality is that we are all human beings at the end of the day and are all vulnerable constantly experiencing 'mental distress' or other either consciously or unconsciously worrying about a finite existence whether we believe in existentialist philosophy god, being or the after life itself.
Help us to help more people and donate your energy, time and money to becoming a supporter of the world's first mental health brand. Creating a brand is the best way to stop the rising number of suicides. Remember we feel your pain and/or indifference otherwise wwe ould be dedicating my entire life to something completely different."
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